|this is my "proof" of working smart. |
emailing about schedules. totally hot, i know.
(well, besides a whole lot of attempts to make excuses about why not to do it even though I said I was going to do it and need to hold myself accountable?)
In reading myself I was alarmed to see how quickly things moved over the last year. Not really for my own sake, though... I tend to go fast and it works for me... more out of fear of being found out. As in: if anyone realizes how little experience I have doing any of these things I currently practice as my life they are going to know I'm a huge fraud and instantly <pick one: fire, dump, reject, shame, ignore> me.
Ay yay yay.
Even though it only took a year to get here, one of the benefits of the new me is that I know when my own head is spewing bullshit that needn't have my attention anymore.
Thank you, head. Thank you, as always, for trying to protect me. I've got this.