theme of the week: neutral.
|i drew us a diagram. this makes it true.|
Somehow, however, (and I'm going to blame mindfulness--yay, mindfulness!) I seem to be living in it.
All week the answer to the "how are you?" or "how is it?" or "how was it?" question starts to come out as "good" but then backs down to a more authentic feeling... "it just was." Which seems to require clarification, because whether all y'all have known about this mysterious grey area longer than I have or not--for the most part, we (yes, we) don't live in it. A lot of things I experience aren't good... but that doesn't make them bad. Something doesn't have to be good to be not bad.
I know, it's deep... take it in. I'll repeat: something doesn't have to be good to be not bad.
if bad is over here on the left (see diagram) and good is over here on the right... there's a whole fucking arc of otherness in between! and it's always been there! ack! mindblowing!
Just because I experience something doesn't mean that I need to make a decision about it... it can just exist and I can exist too and we can just exist.