10.12.2012

"excited"

I woke up feeling anxious yesterday... this is not a new phenomena, it's happened many times before and has been happening a fair bit lately.  What was different, however, was that there were no negative thoughts coming along with the sensations and I was in a pretty damn good mood.

The anxiety felt chemical... as if I'd forgotten to ask for a decaf coffee, but I hadn't had coffee at all. So what was up?

After a few consultations, within and from some outside sources, the verdict: I was excited.  I hadn't registered any excitement for the last couple months--I was either distressed or relieved, but never relieved enough to let excitement in.  Woah. That was quite a realization.

Hello excitement about life. Welcome back. What's up?  Where shall we go from here?