I woke up feeling anxious yesterday... this is not a new phenomena, it's happened many times before and has been happening a fair bit lately. What was different, however, was that there were no negative thoughts coming along with the sensations and I was in a pretty damn good mood.
The anxiety felt chemical... as if I'd forgotten to ask for a decaf coffee, but I hadn't had coffee at all. So what was up?
After a few consultations, within and from some outside sources, the verdict: I was excited. I hadn't registered any excitement for the last couple months--I was either distressed or relieved, but never relieved enough to let excitement in. Woah. That was quite a realization.
Hello excitement about life. Welcome back. What's up? Where shall we go from here?